It isn't hard to tell you...I passed my limits....I'm no longer familiar. My tears dried, there's no expression....no comparable reason, I finally drowned my sorrow.

I took to the streets
night after night
week after week
month after month
I marched under flashing lights
with,no. against the crowd
I couldn't hear, it was so loud
but felt their beat against my chest
bumping into a few and avoiding the rest
I pushed myself deep into the crowd
I couldn't have felt more alone
I couldn't have been more alone
I saw what I couldn't see
I saw, where I thought I'd be blind
I saw foolish
I saw heart
I saw commitment
I saw real friendship
I saw heartbroken
I saw moving lies
I saw pride
I saw home
I saw mistakes
I saw regrets
I saw waste
I saw potential
I saw what I couldn't see
I saw what I didn't want to see
I saw raw passion
I saw both fast and slow
I saw used..using
I saw the touch of skin
I saw deep wounds...deepen
...
I saw myself.
for no more than
discovery of self
faulted now for then
will I ever learn?
a thousand apologies
I was an idiot
every scar on me, I had to earn.
each a chapter
to a story with no real end
as I make my way
with expanding lungs
growing with need for want
that broke my ribs
and a heart that twirls on a single string
spins my conscience
will I ever learn?